May Allah's peace, mercy, and blessings be with you. I am a youth of 21 years of age. I have committed sodomy since I was 8 years old, because my father was too busy to bring me up well. Now, I regret this to the extent that I think of committing suicide, I seek refuge with Allah. What increases my pains and suffering is that my family wants me to marry. I hope that Your Eminence guide me to the right path and the sovereign remedy for my problem, so that I can get rid of the life of suffering that I live. May Allah reward you! S. M. H.
A : May Allah's peace, mercy, and blessings be with you. I ask Allah to grant you recovery from what you have just mentioned which is certainly a hideous crime. Yet, the remedy for it is easy, praise be to Allah. You must repent soon and sincerely by regretting your past sins, giving up this sin, and having the ultimate resolution never to do it again. This is in addition to befriending good people, abandoning bad people, and hastening to marry. Have glad tidings with good, prosperity, and best outcome if you are sincere in your repentance. Allah (may He be Praised and Glorified) says: And all of you beg Allâh to forgive you all, O believers, that you may be successful He (Glorified and Exalted be He) says in Surah AlTahrim: O you who believe! Turn to Allâh with sincere repentance!
The Prophet (may Allah's Peace and Blessings be upon him) also says: Penitence wipes out all the previous misdeeds. He (peace be upon him) also said: He who repents from his sins is like the one who did not commit a sin.
May Allah grant you success, relieve your heart and reform your acts, and endow you with sincere repentance and good friendship. May Allah's peace, mercy, and blessings be with you!